It was about 5 am, I was completely sleepless all I wanted was to hear his voice. bdon ma7s eb nafse I called him and he answered from the first ring.
Loura: "slaiman..."
Slaiman: "abe ashoofch al7een"
Loura: "shayf elsa3a cham? yanait?"
slaiman: "nzlele in 2 minutes"
and he hung up.
I didnt know what to do, my brain wasn't functioning well. I found myself changing into a pair of comfy leggings and a hoodie over my pj top and i tip-toed my way downstairs. 6la3t mn elshalaih and i saw him parked bl bar shway jedam shalaihna. I got into the car and he drove away silently. for about 5 minutes it was a silent ride with majeed playing in the background. I lowered the volume "3ady tgoly shfek?" I asked as i turned to face him. laf 3lay he stared at me for a while and then looked back at the road. "slaiman.."
"shbainich w bain jassem" he asked out of the blue, shocking me with his question.
"shqa9dek shbaini w baina" you can see how shocked i was from my facial reaction.
"so2ale wath7...shbainich w baina?"
"enta mn9jk sulaiman? tadry shnu jassem bnsba le? a3za ma3zat okho la akthar wala aqal"
"ta9arefatkom lama tkonon wya ba3a'6 ma to7e 3la halshay, fe shay bainkom" his words were like a slap to my face, shocking and made no sense.
"la ma9adeg, w 3ala ay asas mqarer ena baina shay?"
"mosta7eel a7ad entay weya 24\7, dayman tsolfen 3na w youm shftkom eb prime jdam 3aini law ma adry ena he's your cousin chan gelt 7abeebch, '6a7ktch wya w 3yoona wohwa e6al3ch mosta7el mafe shay w youm getlch call me w gltele wya jassem enfejart w ana na6er ur call ashofch eb starbucks la w la7gch g****d "
I stayed quite trying to function the words he was throwing at my face.
it took me a while to reply. "madry shagolk ana 3omry ma fakart eb jassem eb hal 6areeqa 3omry, ana close wya wayed ee, a7ba w amoot 3laih bs wallah mashofa akthar mn okho. wetha ele tabe mene ene makon greba mna fa hal shay mosta7el" " w slaiman i dont get our relationship are we friends are we more? l2na lw were just friends you dont have the right enk tsawe fene chthy"
he was silent and took his time with the reply. he turned to face me with those beautiful eyes of his that i couldnt resist. they looked so warm full of love, like the anger and the madness melted away.
"atwaqa3 wath7 ely baina ena akthar mn friendship, matwaqa3 ana gader eny aw9flch shnu mkantch eb galby" he grabbed my arm and gave me a look as if he was asking if its ok to touch me, I blushed instantly and smiled slightly. " maknt met2aked mn masha3ry bs elyoum ta2akdt l2na el a39ab ely knt feha welghera thba7atny, t2kdt ena ana 9ej a7bch"
lsane enreba6 ma3rft shagol w shared.
"ana mo ga3d agolch chethy w na6r rad mnch, e7na n3rf ba3ath 9arlna foug el thalath shhor w atwaqa3 ena elwagt mnasb eny akon 9aree7 wyach about how i feel, cause i honestly feel something real"
I was still shocked there with my head tilted down not knowing what to say, i mean i sure as hell know i love him i felt it mn awal mashfta bs mo 3arfa wala gadra a3aber. he held my arms closer to his face and i looked up into his eyes he kissed them and smiled, I smiled too unconsciously and turned around. a 6 min ride back to our shalaih with rashed al majed playing.
Loura: "slaiman..."
Slaiman: "abe ashoofch al7een"
Loura: "shayf elsa3a cham? yanait?"
slaiman: "nzlele in 2 minutes"
and he hung up.
I didnt know what to do, my brain wasn't functioning well. I found myself changing into a pair of comfy leggings and a hoodie over my pj top and i tip-toed my way downstairs. 6la3t mn elshalaih and i saw him parked bl bar shway jedam shalaihna. I got into the car and he drove away silently. for about 5 minutes it was a silent ride with majeed playing in the background. I lowered the volume "3ady tgoly shfek?" I asked as i turned to face him. laf 3lay he stared at me for a while and then looked back at the road. "slaiman.."
"shbainich w bain jassem" he asked out of the blue, shocking me with his question.
"shqa9dek shbaini w baina" you can see how shocked i was from my facial reaction.
"so2ale wath7...shbainich w baina?"
"enta mn9jk sulaiman? tadry shnu jassem bnsba le? a3za ma3zat okho la akthar wala aqal"
"ta9arefatkom lama tkonon wya ba3a'6 ma to7e 3la halshay, fe shay bainkom" his words were like a slap to my face, shocking and made no sense.
"la ma9adeg, w 3ala ay asas mqarer ena baina shay?"
"mosta7eel a7ad entay weya 24\7, dayman tsolfen 3na w youm shftkom eb prime jdam 3aini law ma adry ena he's your cousin chan gelt 7abeebch, '6a7ktch wya w 3yoona wohwa e6al3ch mosta7el mafe shay w youm getlch call me w gltele wya jassem enfejart w ana na6er ur call ashofch eb starbucks la w la7gch g****d "
I stayed quite trying to function the words he was throwing at my face.
it took me a while to reply. "madry shagolk ana 3omry ma fakart eb jassem eb hal 6areeqa 3omry, ana close wya wayed ee, a7ba w amoot 3laih bs wallah mashofa akthar mn okho. wetha ele tabe mene ene makon greba mna fa hal shay mosta7el" " w slaiman i dont get our relationship are we friends are we more? l2na lw were just friends you dont have the right enk tsawe fene chthy"
he was silent and took his time with the reply. he turned to face me with those beautiful eyes of his that i couldnt resist. they looked so warm full of love, like the anger and the madness melted away.
"atwaqa3 wath7 ely baina ena akthar mn friendship, matwaqa3 ana gader eny aw9flch shnu mkantch eb galby" he grabbed my arm and gave me a look as if he was asking if its ok to touch me, I blushed instantly and smiled slightly. " maknt met2aked mn masha3ry bs elyoum ta2akdt l2na el a39ab ely knt feha welghera thba7atny, t2kdt ena ana 9ej a7bch"
lsane enreba6 ma3rft shagol w shared.
"ana mo ga3d agolch chethy w na6r rad mnch, e7na n3rf ba3ath 9arlna foug el thalath shhor w atwaqa3 ena elwagt mnasb eny akon 9aree7 wyach about how i feel, cause i honestly feel something real"
I was still shocked there with my head tilted down not knowing what to say, i mean i sure as hell know i love him i felt it mn awal mashfta bs mo 3arfa wala gadra a3aber. he held my arms closer to his face and i looked up into his eyes he kissed them and smiled, I smiled too unconsciously and turned around. a 6 min ride back to our shalaih with rashed al majed playing.
يا بعد من راح ومن قام وقعد
ياللي ما قبلك ولا بعد ك احد
ياللي ما قبلك ولا بعد ك احد
كنت انا وقلبي مع موعد غلاك
وانتي اغلى من الوعد لانك وعد
وانتي اغلى من الوعد لانك وعد
انتي جيتيني هديه من السما
وزان عمري يوم انا شفتك هنا
وزان عمري يوم انا شفتك هنا
وكل شي حبيته شفته بك اكيد
انتي حلمي اللي تمنيته انا
انتي حلمي اللي تمنيته انا
من غلاتك كيف اوصفلك غلاك
واللي في قلبي لقلبك كثير
واللي في قلبي لقلبك كثير
باختصار انتي مالك اختصار
انتي غير وانتي وجهك وجه خير
انتي غير وانتي وجهك وجه خير
w9alna shalaihna w 9fa6 shway jedam, i turned around I wanted to say something i wanted to tell him i loved him bs lsany enreba6 magedart. I just smiled and got down,he gave me a wide toothy smile that literally melted my heart, as if he knew whats on mind what i wanted to say but couldnt manage to. He waited till i got in and left. I wasn't feeling sleepy at all so ekhte9art 6rejy and I headed near the beach, i sat on one of those chair swings and replayed rashed's song over and over again, and replaying what slaiman said in my head about a million and 2 times. elmshkla eny adry eny a7ba, mo bs a7ba amoot fe bs maknt gadra agoola. I gathered my thoughts as i sat on the couch infront of the glass doors just watching the sunrise. I unlocked my phone went on whats app.
"a7bek"
"madry laish enreba6 lsany w magdart agolha wana wyak, bs ana al7enn agolk eyaha w ana wath8a mn masha3ry w mt2kda malyon blemya eny a7bek"
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jassem: "luluuuuuuuuuuuu! gomay, khyas noum elsa3a 12"
I opened my eyes to find jassem sipping on his iced white mocha starring at me. "ray7 starbucks w matyeble!!" I said as i threw a pillow at him and stretched.
jassem: "afa bs afa 3balch ansach" he said as he pointed at my drink at the table. I grabbed it, gave him a fly kiss and went up to wash up.
suddenly what slaiman said yesterday about jassem and i came to mind... bs mosta7eel im pretty sure ena elgheera 3meta cause theres now way in hell ekon fe shay between us ghair sisterly brotherly love.
i grabbed my phone to find the cutest messages from slaiman, it made my heart sink so deep.
"7aloooy mat9adgen sh9ar ams!!!!"
hala: "sh9ar!!!?"
i told her every single detail without leaving out a thing.
hala: "entay maynoooooona??? shlon t6l3en wya la w eb hal7aza!!!!"
loura: "shhhh latefthe7ena!"
hala: "mo mal akhalech bro7ch maynona ambai!"
loura: "mafakrt 7azatha all i wanted was to hear his voice w 9edamne lama gale bs 2 minutes isnt enough time for me to think so I just didnt think w nezaltla"
hala: "ambai madry shagolch bs latfakren t3edenha!!"
loura: "it didnt feel wrong klsh, a9lan bl3aks it felt so right"
hala: "nazla 7ag ur 'bf' 4 elfayer.."
loura: "5 actually"
hala: "same thing, law a7d shayfch shbe9er fech w its so wrong on so many levels, i know what ur thinking lulu latfakren t3edenha"
i stayed quite she made me regret what happened so much although i enjoyed every minute of it. I feel so guilty & i hated that.
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